It's not easy...

fadingheartcrys @ 2004-08-14T23:49:00

2004-08-15T03:50:19Z

i dont use my lj anymore but please do keep me as your friend
im now stationed at....
www.xanga.com/o_Poetic_Tragedy_o

i love you
<3

fadingheartcrys @ 2004-06-29T22:33:00

2004-06-30T02:35:02Z

for some odd reason livejoural has been pissing me off. I got a new xanga user name and i might be stationed there. But who knows...

what do you think?

You cant always get want you want but looks like you got it this time

2004-06-25T22:15:58Z

i have had some requests to put this thing in here. I think its deep but you can judge that. Here it is straight from my heart to you

Has your heart ever skipped a beat? Have you wanted to put your hands in theirs? Have you ever seen their faces in your sleep and you have gone places they wanted to? Have you worked hard for their heart? Have you wished they'd do the same for you and have waited these things to start? You’re a player in this game of love so roll the dice. Your love can burn like fire or grow as cold ice. Did you feel then grow cold and the calls decrease in number and the love so strong in winter had already faded by summer? Did you cry at the sight of smallest things? Things they'd given you face the memories that wont die? Did you feel the trail under your eyes? I think I love you. I think I hate you. So what am I so afraid of? Heartbreak, crying, constant lying awake my head in my hands. Your words cutting through me like razors. The feeling of never seeing you again piercing my skin.

thanks lauren i love you!

fadingheartcrys @ 2004-06-23T12:48:00

2004-06-23T16:53:23Z

I feel as if i need a new icon and background.

Even though i love chris and my watch me cry. I think it's time for a new start.

what do you think?

Your So Cool

2004-06-20T20:14:48Z

I havent updated in a while. I have been busy or just lazy.
As everyone knows friday/ saturday was great fun.
< Highlights>
- Joe calling Kim and Kim really thinking it was Bill
- Sam hitting her head on the fan at leslie's house full of pictures of dead old people
- Jamie getting a piece of the cowboy's ass
- Danielle ice skating around mcdonalds

That night was great. I think we should have dance sleep over more often because dance people are the best and i love them.

I still think of Jordan non- stop

im just a crazy little girl who thinks boy suck but really wants one.... :-/

i think i have been touched by an angel

2004-06-17T05:00:31Z

The Guster concert kicked ass. The best part of the whole concert was Jordan. I kind of met this kid.....hes so hott. BEYOND HOTT! He was on fire. He was nice,and he had a good voice. I noticed it when he was singing his heart out to Guster. I took loads of pictures including one of his fine ass! He smiled and my heart skipped a beat. His arm touched me i had to hold on to either mandy's or marissa's leg. I feel like im floating on a cloud.... do you belive in love at frist sight? Because i know that i do.

I love mel and everyone from dance. I can't wait till friday, to paint the town pink.

Rocking out to LP on the way home with mandy, marissa and mandy's bro was the best ever.

Highlight of my week...maybe summer < seeing Jordan >

<3

New background again...

2004-06-16T21:10:30Z

I know i just got a new backgroud but who can resist the one and only christopher ender carraba. If you dont know who he is well hes the leader singer of dashboard. I happen to like them and if you dont tough luck....

Tonight is guster/ben folds with Mandy and Marissa

IM EXCITED! I THINK I MIGHT PEE MY PANTS LIKE A LITTLE BOY!!

oh yeah i cant wait till friday. A night out with my girls.... my dance girls :)

<3

fadingheartcrys @ 2004-06-14T14:59:00

2004-06-14T19:04:17Z

I have hope and so should you....

i love everyone from dance <3

check out these hott babes Katie and Ashley ( my background) These two fine ladies are just one reason why i love dance

guster concert in two days
excited!

tommorw night bia!

2004-06-12T04:55:56Z

i cant wait for tommorw night! im ever so excited because its rectail and i love it!And alot of friends and family are coming to watch me to which is even better. It's always nice to have someone cheering for you :)

i <3 Dance and the people that surrounds me at dance. They just make me happy!

anyways....
while im at all these dance practice i have alot of time to think ( of course when im not getting my freak on)and i was thinking that this guy doesnt mean a thing to me. Hes just a friend of mine a GOOD friend and thats all i want because him as more than a friend is just not worth it. Hes a terrible boyfriend and he just not worth a second glance like that. I have learned my lesson about him and i wasnt even in far. BUT i want a lover. I dont want some ass here and there. I want someone to care about me and for me to care about them....

is it that hard to ask for??

i am determined to do great tommorw night and find a new lover :)

GOOD LUCK MY FELLOW HIGH VOLTAGE GIRLS! KNOCK EM DEAD!!!!

I Love....

2004-06-10T18:39:26Z

I LOVE MEL BECAUSE SHE IS THE BEST PERSON EVER
she deserves the best teacher alive award! Your the best!

dont worry Mel we all love you!

Xoxo

havent updated in a while

2004-06-10T03:24:07Z

monday was great fun.. i love everyone from southside :)
the after party was even better haha i love rummy royal

new layout

i seroiusly love dance and i love the people that are there. each and everyone of them kick ass!

i love the lightning looks like stanely is getting a tan

wow, i just love everyone dont i?

<3

wades moms kadonkadonk

2004-06-06T02:06:05Z

what a crazy couple of days

Thursday: went to marissa and hung out with kyle and wade. Might i say that i love wades moms kadonkadonk haha...i kissed a drunk girllll haha marissa silly ass

Friday: mandy and marissa came over and we saw harry potter along with melanie and paul.... ahh melanie what great times we had in the theater. DAMN that broken chair haha. anyways the movie was amazing haha i <3 daniel and yes sam he is very hott!

Today: marissa and mandy left. Went to a high voltage dance team party at taylor's. What a great time i had and a day to remember with my team.I love them all so much and i just wanted to thank mel and sarah beth for everything this year.love you guys

now im watching the game and the lightning must win because if they loose them we dont get the stanley cup. WE MUST WIN!

XoXo
<3

Love is a Battlefield and im dying in it

2004-06-03T02:53:11Z

i guess i had a great time at my aunts but i had a lot of time to think. I sat there and thought about him. Which made me upset....

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The waters rising and I'm slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder.
It's only been a week, but it's coming over me.
It's making me believe that you're the one for me.......

and he has no idea

....i just got to think postivie.....
but its hard

Friday: Harry Potter comes out :) <3 Daniel <3
Monday: Melanies party :) :) :) :) i cant wait to see everyone

MY LOVES ARE BACK FROM FRANCE I MISSED THEM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMUCH!!!!!!!

<3....</3

Im in pain

2004-05-31T03:09:20Z

I have sun poisioning. My face hurts really bad and so does my heart. Just once i wish that i get the guy my heart feels for but yet again its not going to happen. Im going to try through. Im trying to poistive but then again whats postive about be lonley and having a great amout of feelings for someone and your pretty sure they dont have any whats so ever for you. Pretty sure?? i say because i just know,who would like me....?

hmm

i want you to want me the way i want you...

make sense?

</3

what a great day

2004-05-30T04:26:58Z

today seroiusly kicked ass! Lauren, Tiffany, Mandy and I hung out all day. The adventure started out at 11 at the beach. At the beach we went swimming walked around and found a trans in a rainbow bathing suit. We went to lunch around 2 and saw some pretty hott boys. Left around 4. We all headed back tto house. There we hit the pool and went crazy. From master master to the pee area. After the pool we hit the showers we was filled with jstin timberlake, tlc, and vh1 songs haha. Then it was off to state theater. There we saw Westshore who really sucked but leader singer was super sexy. After westshore was tokyo rose. Who might i say was pretty good and ahh the dummer Jon Smith was very hott with only his boxers on ;-) haha Lauren we are his groupies!! Soon after them it was CLEARLY BLURRED time. They rocked the mother fing house but then again when do they not?? A little while later Chubby Tuff hit the stage. Man were they exciting. Today is going down in my books as a pretty kick ass day! I love you guys so much and lets hope this summer we will have many days like this one!

Now im sunburned and tired as hell....
i wish Dnaiel or Jon were here or maybe him to cuddle with me

today at the beach i couldnt get my mind off of you, your sent reminds me of the beach,

<3

fadingheartcrys @ 2004-05-27T21:52:00

2004-05-28T03:32:32Z

Tonight at Dance i had alot of fun! haha Katie im funna kunfoo ya ass! haha i love my black/white katie!

You guys need to come see me dance at the rectail because you guys love me and i love you

i started reading the 5th harry potter book today.. i love reading

ill update later

<3

hes not going to pick my heart over hers

2004-05-27T20:30:37Z

i never win in the game of love

but he wont... im going to keep it in my heart

FOREVER!

</3

what can i say...

2004-05-27T02:41:45Z

i have never gone this crazy over someone like this. what can i say...daniel radcliffe. i have a desktop , aim expression , icon and im printing out pictures to tape all over my room!! not to mention i was up last night wacthing him on tv till 4 yes i love him. but man hes so hott he makes me hott hahaha
check it out

look at that hottness! ahhhhhh! im telling you i want to met this kid and i want to be his girlfriend and then i want to marry him and have his kids! But raping him would be okay i guess haha

I LOVE DANIEL RADCLIFFE AND HES MINE SO BACK THE FUCK OFF BITCHES!!

bored, when they hell are they coming back?

2004-05-26T18:19:03Z

i miss Marissa, Rachael, Rica and Paul so much!
why couldnt i have gone to France with them? It seems like my day is nothing without talking or seeing there beautiful faces. May 30 is wshen the come back. I want to be at the airport at 12 at night to greet them and love them so much! Man im such a loser. They havent even be gone a week and i miss them. What am i going to do next year without seeing there faces everday at school? Im going to die thats what im going to do.

i love them so much and i dont think the understand how much they mean to me

okay, now im sad. Im sorry i just cant live without my booo! aka marissa

XoXo
</3

Loved!

2004-05-26T04:10:59Z

Can i tell you something....

i have the best friends in the whole god damn world! IF you read my last entry click to view the comments and you will see that these 3 fine ladies make me laugh and thats why i love them and iwould love you too if you happen to comment on to

thanks katie and jamie for helping me with my journal!
I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX!

this busyness needs to stop

2004-05-22T04:13:45Z

i havent updated in a while :-/

Monday: 8th grade school dance.There really is only a couple words to describe that night, kick ass,fun,sad. I had a great time and i will never forget it.

Tuesday: Last day of school :(! This is one of the saddest days of my life. I cried so much that day you would never belive! i will miss everyone to death and you all best keep in touch bia! Also my bro graduated and we had a party. Marissa,Mandy, Tabby and Rachael spent the night. what a wild night. goodtimes goodtimes.

Wensday: Marissa,Mandy, Rachael,Melanie,Lauren,Tabby, and Tiffany were over and we hung out all day. Man that was fun so many inside jokes my gals. i love you all!

Thursday:Woke up early to go to the beach with Marissa and Tessi. After the beach it was a trip to my crib.There we went in the pool and wacthed titanic. Did i tell you that i love that movie and along with the hottness called leo! That night Mandy, Marissa, Rachael and i went to the movies. We ended up seeing New York minute and having the whole place to our self.AHHHHHH WHAT A GREAT TIME! mcdonald boys mwhaha shoipe, capi and kiki,tehes!

Friday: A day of shopping with Shannon and Chad. What fun! Tonight we went to Berns for dinner. Man was that an adventure. I love Shannon. We have become closer, like sisters and i like it. I love having a older sister :)

remind me to update more often do i wont have to type like a book...

<3

i wish these 2 days of my life to last......forever

2004-05-17T00:57:02Z

im so depressed sad happy excited...there are so many emotions i am feeling its crazy.

tommorw is the 8th grade dance. i really cant wait but i dont want it to come because i know that the next day is the last day with everyone. i cant BEAR it.

i never want it to end i love you guys way to much to say goodbye....keep me in your heart forever.

dont forget me because i know i wont forget you

XoXo </3

i was these 2 days of my life to last......forever

2004-05-17T00:54:57Z

will this party ever end?

2004-05-15T20:33:10Z

There are two words to describe last nights party with rachael,mandy,marissa, rica,lauren and melanie...and those words would be : THE SHIT! I had the an awsome time with awsome people.

Tonight mandy is coming over and we are going to party some more.Tommorw we are getting are nails done and tanning....you must look good for the 8th grade dance

im excited, happy, but most of all im sad....

i never want to loose any of you

hold me back please.....just hold me back

2004-05-13T23:48:06Z

well today was just great! not!! i seroiusly hate 7th graders. They can rot in hell. I dont understand how they get the pleasure of spreading rumors of things they arent true. Im telling you hold me back on the last day of school i might be trempted to punch the shit outta them.

tommorw is mccoy semester test. Rica and I will be up late tonight studying like dorks we are haha

maybe tommorw will be a better day :-/